Motherhood

Fear is something that has a tendency to hold us back, especially me. I used to be such a free spirit who would jump head first into things and worry about the consequences later. There are a lot of days where I miss that girl. I think the fear took over when I became a mother and I was responsible for the life of someone else.

Do you know who fear's best friend is? Worry! I worry a lot. I worry about things that I have absolutely no control over, especially my kids. I don't want to micromanage my children, I know that they need to have room to grow, they need to make mistakes and learn from them. I cannot solve all of their problems, trust me when I say that I want to. I worry about losing them. I worry about them losing me. I worry about who they're hanging around with, whether or not they'll make the right choice when I'm not there to make sure they do. I have spent the last 13 years worrying and I don't foresee it slowing down anytime soon.

These two beautiful human beings I brought into this world consume my heart. They are my biggest accomplishments and the best things that have ever happened to me. I am learning to let go of my (excessive) worries and fears...Let go and let God. The biggest lesson I am trying to implement at this stage in my life is "Let your faith be bigger than your fear".

A mother's greatest gift is the love of her children.

(Via)

Until next time, 

xxoo