Appointment follow up

Today was emotionally and mentally hard for me. I had an appointment with my dermatologist and I got to ask the questions I wanted to ask and the answers were not what I was hoping for.

The doctor said that Frontal Fibrosing Alopecia is progressive and that it is why I am seeing an increase in hair loss. The steroid treatments that I have been receiving is not enough to stop this train in it's track. It is going to require more medication and so I have been prescribed another medication that will be taken in conjunction with the minocycline that I am currently taking daily. I also received more injections in my head. They hurt but it helps put the itching and burning at ease so I am ok with it. Also, stress can cause hair loss. Of course I stress over the loss of my hair, which probably is just increasing the hair loss. Stupid vicious cycle.

I love this doctor she is so kind but she also doesn't give me false hope. There is a lot of scarring, unfortunately, so she doesn't expect that I will have much success with regrowth and that it may be time to start considering investing in a hair piece or wig. This was more than I could handle and the tears poured down my face. I am only in my mid-30s. I am still young. Why is this happening? It sucks so damn bad.

I shed many tears today. I talked to my mom and my cousin about it and I cried some more. I texted my Mister because I needed some more support. When he came home this evening I was so emotionally drained between taking in this news and the bickering of the kids, not to mention the 3 year old that I am babysitting for the next 4 days. I was crabby and I didn't foresee anything good coming from that.

The highlight of my day was my conversation with my mom. She is so sweet and is offered to pay for my wig, hair piece, or extensions if, or when, I am ready to explore that avenue. She also said that she would cover the cost for me to get my eyebrows microbladed. What a blessing my mama is! She is so kind, thoughtful, and generous. I hope I grow to be as lovely of a person as she is. I love her.

Today is wrapping up and I need a good nights sleep. Tomorrow is a new day and with a fresh perspective. I will not live in my pity about my hair loss. I will not pretend that it is not happening, but I also won't dwell on it. I need to focus on what I can control versus what I have no control over. So many blessings in this beautiful life that I am blessed with.

Until next time,

xoxo